boo, school work

Oh my goodness i'm sitting in bed thinking of all the school work I have to complete within the next two months, wow it's a lot! So much chemistry, biology, and history, booo. I'm not stressed yet though, I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Probably bad seeing as I work best under pressure. Oh dear.

Random Facts About Myself

- the best snack is oreo cookies dipped in milk
- I used to be stoked to graduate and now that the date is fast approaching I'm so scared
- people always think that I'm shy but really I just prefer to listen
- random dance parties are a frequent occurrence in my life
- the only thing I can successfully bake is pumpkin chocolate chip muffins
- jumping on the trampoline in the pouring rain is one of the funnest experiences
- I love camp Qwanoes and wish that I was working there again this summer
- I miss the relationship that I used to have with Jesus
- I could watch movies all day
- I despise math, my mind can't comprehend it
-I hate it when people don't recycle or when people litter
-I love doing random things with friends
-I'm slightly a hobbit, I basically live in my room
-On a Saturday morning I wont be up until at least 12, unless I have to be
- Me and my brothers are all super alike and this can cause frequent conflicts
- I love listening to music, real music, not mainstream, although it is great to dance too.
- I go to a self pace school and I'm a massive procrastinator, somehow I manage to get straight A's minus math

Judgmental

Being judged is the worst feeling, especially when the judging is coming from people that you thought you were good friends with. I feel like I am constantly needing to watch every word that is coming out of my mouth lately. friends of mine have come to the conclusion that my language has gotten bad, well maybe it has, but their language is no better, it's worse. Not once have I talked to them about them having bad language. They call me argumentative and say that I over analyze everything and that I am sensitive, that is such crap. It takes a lot for me to get upset, I don't let the little things bother me. The only reason this situation is having an effect on me is because it's so hypocritical and the negativity and judgment I'm facing is coming from some of my best friends. The worst part is that I can't talk to them about it because then that will prove their point that I am argumentative and that I over analyze. I guess they don't know me as well as I thought they did.. cool..

As David Bowie Sings; "Ch-ch-ch-changes"

I've always been the person who knew what they were going to do after they graduated. For me the answer was a nurse. Since elementary school to become a nurse was my dream and I always thought that I would fulfill that dream of mine. Very recently I have decided that being a nurse is not the best career choice for me. This decision was very hard and stressful for me to make because i've never had any other career ideas. Of course this enlightenment would happen in my grade 12 year just when it's time to start apply for universitys. I like to have things planned out in advance and know what's going to happen next but this year has held nothing but the opposite. After plenty of hours spent on the internet googling careers and blocks of sitting in the career centre at school trying to get ideas, I think i'm going to become a social worker. I love the idea of this career because there are so many different things you can do with it, you can work in a hospital, work in addictions, work in a school, social services, etc. The one thing I want to have in my career is to be able to make a difference and not just sit behind a desk filling out paper work and such. I now am going to have to go through the hassle of filling out university applications. I really want to go to UFV that way I can still live at home. I dont think I could handle living on campus anywhere, I need my space and enjoy being alone. We will see what I end up doing when september rolls around, watch me be in a entirely different program and living on campus somewhere. I do know one thing is certain though, I need to rely more on the Lord and trust his plan for me.